Realizing things/2016

 
I still can't believe that we are already in 2017, it seems like yesterday the clock turned 12 and we were celebrating 2016. But believe it or not a whole year has passed.
For me 2016 it was not bad but I would not say it was great, it was more of a reflection of the previous years and failures, it was the year where I decided to find my true calling and realise my dreams and aspirations.
I always find myself dwelling on the past, lost in time between the present and events that happened years ago and that notion took away the best moments of my life.

However, in 2016 I decided to break the cycle, fight my inner demons and re-discover myself. The first month of 2016 I had a wakeup call, as I was procrastinating my life away watching silly videos on youtube and stalking my ex’s new girlfriend on facebook (yup, im ashamed of myself). I was already in my mid 20s but with no direction yes I had my degree but I didn’t really know what I wanted to do with it. I was surrounded by toxic people that they were draining my energy, I was constantly comparing myself with others, I was living in a virtual reality where nothing was real, my friends, my life and ultimately me. I had to act in a specific way so my friends continue to be my friends constantly wearing a mask and slowly killing the person that I truly was. I cried my eyes out every night wondering where my life has gone why did I allow this to happen why there is no way out, why I stuck in a vicious cycle with no doors or any way out.

I felt alone in despair and for the first time in years I felt scared, scared that everything that I believed in will be taken away by time, by my attitude by everyone.
But as you can see in every little sentence in this post what I do is blaming others, for my failures, my mistakes, my life. Instead of looking at the real problem which it was me; I repressed it so I can make myself feel a little better. I became bitter and self-destructive and again I blamed the circumstances not me. It wasn’t until I faced my inner demons that I realised what was really happening that I was the source of my pain no one else, and it wasn’t until then I decided to make a change.

The first thing I done was to re-evaluate and truly reflect on the past but not to dwell on but to see the lessons that I learned through out time. I took time to love myself and believe that I am worth it and im not here for anyone else. I removed all the toxic people from my life even though it wasn’t easy, I felt like I could finally breath.
I realised that no one was responsible for me and stopped making excuses for myself.
I took time away so I can see the world, grow and evolve find who I am and where I wanna go. For me 2016 was a highlight year and it was the year I realised things and opened my eyes.
2017 it will be the year where I will built myself so I can ultimately become the person that im meant to be.
And as Kylie Jenner said 2016 was like, realizing stuff.

      So here is to a great 2017 full of positive vibes happiness and making shit happen.                                                               #kickass

What is your biggest regret in 2016?
And what do you wanna achieve in 2017?

Anna

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16 comments

  1. Its crazy to think that we are in 2017, 2016 seemed to be the year that everything happened. Brexit, Trump, deaths of loved ones and celebrities, there were definitely ups and downs but the positives are definitely there. After all you started a masters degree which is always impressive xxx

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  2. I love your honesty (we've all been a stalker, it's no biggy ;-) ) and the fact you're removing toxic people from your life is only a good thing. Here's to a fab 2017 xx

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  3. I think you reach a point where toxic people have to be ruled out of your life otherwise its just self destruction to keep them there. Heres to a great 2017!

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  4. It sounds like you made some real progress in 2016 and have come a long way. I think the key is to constantly make small changes and goals to achieve what you want out of life x

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  5. Change is scary but it's for the best. Yes reflection is also good and can help in many aspects of life. I wouldn't say I regret anything in 2016 but have set lots of goals for 2017 so here's to another great year.

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  6. This might sound silly but I have always wanted to check up on my ex's new squeeze but then I never had time because I was busy being me and loving me. Good luck with 2017.

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  7. Ahh we've all been there stalking our exes on facebook, I still do it now when I'm feeling nosy!! I hope that 2017 is a good year for you. xx

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  8. All the best for 2017. You've everything ahead of you.

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  9. You are one of the most empowering and inspiring bloggers out there. I can connect with you with every post you write, keep up the good work. Can't wait to read more of your work.

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  10. I love how honest you are in every post, i am a fan of your work. You are an amazing writer.

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  11. I am still refusing to accept we are in 2017 and keep writing 2016, that year literally zoomed by in a flash x

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  12. It is so easy to get sucked up on past regrets and I am glad that you have seen sense and moved on. I have no regrets about 2016, we had a fabulous year and I would not change a thing

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  13. I got rid of toxic people in 2016 so i have no regrets now for 2017 its time to move forward and concentrate on my priorities.

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  14. 2016 went by so fast. My biggest regret is giving the little attention I gave to toxic people. This 2017 is all about focusing on the good stuff.

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  15. Very true, time flies leaving behind some sweet and some bitter memories

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  16. I guess I'm more worried about this year, and some of the big political changes that are happening.

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