"Run before time takes your dreams away"
Hey, I missed you can't wait to see you later.
When did "later" gained more power than now, was it the same time, we put our dreams on hold for temporary pleasures that will not have any meaning tomorrow. Or maybe is the far thought of tomorrow that hold us back. But there is no really tomorrow, tomorrow is today.
Having being indoctrinated by society that when we reach a certain age we have to have achieved so many things, such as degrees,career, cars, house, marriage,kids etc. Currently, I'm in my mid-20s soon will be in my late 20s and sometimes I feel like am lost in a vicious cycle that does not seem to end. I have never been that lucky girl that had everything there, I worked hard since I was very young, I own who I am today, but I still feel like I haven't achieved anything or at least I am not where I would want to be.
Time, that is what I thought I had when I was 20 and then at 21 and so fourth, but time goes by so fast, that sometimes I think I will never catch up. I am not scared of growing old is inevitable but I am scared of growing old without achieving anything. Waking up one day and my youth is gone and I'm still at the same old place. Lost in the abyss of now and then.
What is really time?
I vaguely remember, when I was a child and the time did not exist. The summers then lasted forever and the winters even longer. Now I blink and the summer is over we are just about to celebrate Christmas again and enter a new year. Every passing year seems to be going faster and faster. But, what if there no such a thing as time. As many scientists have previously supported. What if we exist outside time and time is just an illusion.
Even if it is an illusion a human fabrication is still essential, but how do we catch up, when it goes by so fast that we don't have time to breathe. When we grow old and see our loved ones grow older too.
How do we balance everything on time?
An internal question of mine that I always had what is time? Maybe I should have done physics instead of psychology but then I would probably sucked at it.