Tuesday, 6 September 2016

New Beginnings

                        
For the last three years, my life stuck on reply, I was on a rut that did not seem to end. After many disappointments I somehow convinced myself that's how things are going to be, I shut my self out completely and did not expect anything, I stopped trying, I gave up. Everyone saw me as that funny girl with no worries in life, the truth is that I was just numb, I somehow disconnected every emotion, at that time, I believed that was the only way to survive. There is nothing worse that seeing everything falling apart right before your very eyes and not being able to do anything but stare.        

 But how long can you stare, without blinking? You will eventually blink and in the total darkness you are in, you will see a tiny bit of light and that light means hope. I was lost in an abyss,where the darkness consumed my dreams and aspirations, my soul. I knew that I needed to find a way out or else I won't make it, I am not weak I told to myself, I've been through much worse, and I took my life into my hands. That's when I found myself again, I found the drive and passion that led me here. Rejection and disappointments are part of life part of the journey but that doesn't mean that your destination won't be filled with success and happiness.
With everything given I rebuilt myself and this time I made sure that nothing will fall apart, I won't fall apart. I do not reject the dark side of me because that's part of who I am, it makes me strong more creative, I embrace it. But I have chosen to let the light inside me lead the way. 

And here I am now in the beginning of new era, at the dawn of something new.
I always associated September with new beginnings, a chance to start over. This September will be different not easier but different. I have something to look forward to, I moved to a new house I will be finally doing my MSc in a prestige university. I am grateful for the amazing friends that came into my way and shown me that I can still trust people, but I am also grateful for all the people who doubted me and put me down, I pushed harder because of them.
             

This post is dedicated to new beginnings and those people who have chosen to chase their dreams until their last breath. We create our future, create yours, like I created mine.



Words
Anna 

Wearing: Miss Selfridge Dress
Shoes&Jacket: Primark

Follow me on Twitter: @AnN3e

Photography: David Johnson

23 comments:

  1. I know the feeling you're talking about all too well. I'm proud of you for embracing the overwhelming feelings and coming out on top with a new beginning. Life is full of those, fortunately.

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  2. Good luck! September is a great month indeed for new beginnings. Hope you settle into well into University life.

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  3. I am so happy for you! Wish you the very best in life! I know how rejection feels like and to be that 'funny girl with no worries in life' - but wish you the very best for your new beginnings!

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  4. Good luck, it sounds like an exciting time ahead. I am hoping September is going to be good for me to. I have been a stay at home mum for years and I am now trying to find a job :)

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  5. Good luck with your university course and hope you relish your new path

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  6. Good luck lovely and here is to new beginnings x

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  7. September is a great month for a fresh start, isn't it? Hope it all goes well

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  8. Best of luck! P.S. I absolutely love your outfit.

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  9. I hope September proves to be a fabulous month for you.

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  10. You are one of the inspirational bloggers out there, I love reading your posts, you make me laugh, cry and most importantly you inspire me to chase my dreams. Thank you for that. Also I love your outfit, is the perfect outfit for a sunny day in the town. You are so pretty, it's crazy.
    Ella from Ohio.

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  11. Very inspiring words. Life can be tough but if you learn from it and it makes you stronger, that is a good way to be.

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  12. good luck in your new beginnings... im sure you will fly it

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  13. Best of luck to you with your new path and MSc!!

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  14. I wish you good luck with your new path and im sure you'll do well.

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  15. Wishing you all the best on your new journey :)

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  16. New beginnings are the best. Hopefully this one will be the start of something really exciting and successful!

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  17. I can totally relate hun, embrace every side of yourself even the dark side as it is part of you just dont let it consume you.

    Good luck with the MSc I too am doing an MSc this September.

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  18. I know those ruts you are talking about all to well. well done for working through it and taking back control of your life

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  19. September is a great month to have a new beginning. Best of luck with your msc. That's quite an achievement and also moving home x

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  20. Beautifully written, you are quite the writer my friend. I say yes to new beginnings and I am thankful that you are in my new beginning because you are one of my favourite beings in the whole world and I think that you are going places. You never pity yourself and you are so strong xxx

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  21. Very inspiring! September is a new beginning for me too, my boy starts school this year so I've now got more time to concentrate on my business and dedicate the time it needs to keep growing

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  22. Hope you enjoy your new degree and that these changes are for the good :) Your outfit is gorgeous!

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