Does it worth it?It seems like yesterday little me would look at the sky and wonder,what is beyond the mountains,how are the people in far away lands, will I ever get out of this small town? I never wanted the simple easy life that all my then friends and cousins wanted- meaning get married early have children move to a house close to your parents and just live. For me that was not living, it was just existing. I wanted more,I wanted to see the world meet people from different cultures, get a degree and my ultimate dream live in a big city. Every time, I mentioned that, people would laugh at me, I was just a little girl, and my fate is in this town. They laughed at me and doubted me so much that I stopped expressing them my need to get away and my dreams, even to my parents. However, I knew someway somehow I would make it, I never doubted that even though everyone around me did.
Everyone laughs and doubts were meaningless, when I had a golden ticket to London in my hand and three unconditional offer from three universities. That was when I realized that the word impossible exists only in your state of mind, you can remove the two words in-frond and make it possible.
Everything happened so fast, within few weeks I grab my precious offer worked hard to buy my ticket and flew away.
I can't believe is been 7 years since I was at the airport only 18 years old seeing my mother's eyes red from the tears, my dad was trying to hold it back but I could see the tears coming down, I was their little girl after all. They knew that I wasn't leaving for 3 years but forever, they knew that I would only go back for few weeks in Christmas and maybe summer. Just before I go on the plane my dad whispered to my ear that he is proud of me and I will make it. My mom on the other hand, told me not to be scared everything will turn out okay. But for the first time in my life I wasn't scared even though I knew nothing will be the same anymore and I could possibly face many adversities. It was the happiest day of my life and fear was not option.
My dreams of living in a big city were slowly turning into a nightmare. Many times I cried myself to sleep thinking no matter how hard I tried I will never get my dream job or even live in a bigger room. Living in a big city is rough, as you realize the world is not made of roses, people are cruel and they are ready to step on you on the first opportunity, you have to learn to fight back. The life in a big city teaches you how to survive, think quick and be strong if you can't do that you will lose yourself,eventually. Even though, I face many struggles, I love London, I found myself here, met incredible people, I still believe that is one most beautiful cities in the world and I feel grateful to live here.